Tuesday, August 14, 2012

That dream.

 سْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم


Malam tadi tidur dan mimpi tentang hari pertunangan. Banyak belum settle. I haven't done with my doorgift yet (which is sekarang ni memang belum pun!), and mini pelamin tak jadi buat, baju main pakai saja, dan I don't even know if my make-up time tu really makes me look good. But to my surprise, tak menggelabah pun. I did really enjoy myself with all the happy surroundings. I heard myself telling, redha saja dan terima seadanya. I didn't saw him in my dream. Majlis belum start pun and saya terus terjaga dari tidur. Ahh. I am all good but I don't know why and what ... something left me feel uneasy to breath..

Saya freak out saja mungkin.

Back to real life.

Cuma sebuah pertunangan tapi, it's a real engagement of an engagement. ENGAGEMENT. Penglibatan. Perjanjian untuk hidup bersama dan untuk bakal bergelar suami isteri. Itu yang paling buat saya nervous. Mampukah kami membuat yang terbaik untuk kami dan hubungan kami? Insya-Allah. I don't know if I am ready for this yet knowing that things will not be the same again, but I am not going to look back.

I've asked YOU for so much, yet here I stand, seeking more. I feel so ashamed & unworthy. But please, Allah - make this happen for us. Amin..
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