Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors.

September 27, 2010

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way

It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
"You know, I haven't seen you around before"

My sister is having a boyfriend. Yeappp, you heard me right. My 15 years old sister has a boyfriend. Should I freak out? Let's see.

When I was her age, I had a boyfriend. But, it's not a proper serious one, you know, kiddies(?) stuff, our friends keep on teasing and "I like you, you like me, let's be a couple" overnight kind of "relationship" (- -") But well it lasts til 6 years though, as things getting serious and moreee serious. The first cut, the deepest one.. The memories with him is the longest one, my teenhood memories are all attached to him.

Mom found out about Dana and she wasn't really happy about the idea. Disapproving. Dana is still so young and now some toddler is calling her his baby when obviously he's a baby too! (- -")

I had some long and short boy talk with my sister and I realized she's mature enough for her age, in relationship matter. More mature than I was back in the days. I knew it that someday my experience I told her would be useful one day. I used to talk with her a lot about  relationships I've had. With Nick, S, Azizzul, Razif, Din, Armin. The do's and don'ts. Some simple reminder sometimes. It's just, wow, she's having her own experience so youngggg *talk to the mirror!*

I don't really remember the time if mum or ayah ever stop me from having a boyfriend, but I'm sure they were freaked out as well as me or might be they're just being understanding. What they really care about is my grads and school performance and that's all. I was quite a scorer and well-mannered back in those days, ..these might be the reason why =D So you can guess why the hell mum not really trust Dana for having a boyfriend right? Aaaaaaanyway.. truth is, I'm just scared that she'll get hurt. If I had it my way, I don't want her to go through anything painful. I want to protect her from ANY harms, from heartaches, from disappointments, from everything that caused me to tears in the past.

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out

And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car
And you're feeling like flying
And you're momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one
And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends
When the night ends

When you're fifteen and your first love
Makes your head spin 'round
But in your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

This goes to every girls out there. Especially yang 15 tahun sebab, well lagu ni kan tajuknya Fifteen, but all around, still, masih untuk girls out there yang baru nak meningkat remaja. 14 ke 15 ke 16 ke 17 ke, sama saja. Sebut fifteen, sebab, girls dah mula naik hormon waktu umur sekitar 15. Dah mula ada perubahan-perubahan fizikal waktu umur 15. Boys dah pecah suara dan dah mula ada perasaan tertarik pada girls. Ah so secondary school.

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

Yes I wish I could go back and tell myself what I know now. Or at least, tell Dana what I know now and what she'll be missing if she gave her heart to the wro.... well the first one always the wrong one. But I can't be so selfish to tell her this, can I?

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind and we both cried

You know why I feel so connected to this song? It's because Abigail remind me to my best friend, Ziela.

When you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

Zaman saya dan zaman Dana adalah dua zaman berbeza. Remaja sekarang ada fiil yang memeningkan kepala. Makin halang, makin buat. Suka memberontak. Ah headache I datang bila cakap pasal ni. Tak tahulah bila ai sendiri ada anak nanti. Yes, time can heal most anything, though. And we all know, to learn is to experience. And all I can do is just be a sister who comes to aid when the going gets rough for her. But I just couldn't stand the thought if she'll do the same mistake as mine. God, forbids her.

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  1. so true...u wanna protect them and at the same time u worry if they can really,really understand ur good intention...

  2. The Writer ^_~ LeAnne,
    apa pun, i must let them to experience such thing, or else they'll never learn what life is. mum and ayah let me, so i suppose to let them.. :/

  3. it's either u learn from others' mistakes or u learn from ur own mistake..... the keyword is LEARN!!!

  4. .s.o.f.i.a.,
    LEARN is okey. to be HURT is not okey. to be HURT to LEARN things is somewhat painful but well they are learning. tengok dia tiap mlm gelak2 on the phone like SHE'S NOT HAVING PMR lepas tu kalau tegur dia cakap SAYA TAHULAAA. seeing her so happy when we know it wouldn't last forever OMG stress aku @_@

    yes, saya freaked out T_T

  5. just pray that she wont do something that she may regret in the future. but i agree, everyone needs to learn from own mistake or other's. to err is human.