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WHERE DOES YOUR HEART BEAT, DEAR.. CUZ I DON'T REALLY FEEL YOU.

Friday, October 31, 2008

31th OCTOBER 2008

'Abg nak datang Kachi. Discussion. Leh jumpe lepas tu.' lebih kurang macam ini mesejnya.

Kebetulan petang itu saya sedang online di depan pejabat DPP Kolej Kachi 2. Hati berbunga2. Dia datang bersama Amirul, temannya, tidak lama selepas itu. bawa mknan. we talk a lil while around 10 minutes, then he away going to see his girl friends as planned..

i waited about two hours only to know that he forgot about his promise to come to see me after his discussion! guys. its a bad idea to break your promises to a woman you love. Promise is a promise, something we should keep. when u break it, its no more a promise. for a woman, its like u say 'hey i take you for granted' or 'u're nothing important for me'

I cried awhile that evening because my heart feel like breaking to death then fell asleep until 10pm. I texted him and he called me by phone to say sorry. I spoke up my mind, about what I truly feel about it. boleh saja jika saya mahu mendiamkan diri sya and just walk away from all that, but still i want to give love a chance. or should i really have to walk away? bukan sekali ini saja perkara ini berlaku. i want his appreciation, his heart, his ALL.. to stay strong beside him.. :(

He used to hear me crying over silly thing when I get mad or ‘datang bulan’. I don’t know how he do it, but through the end, I always found myself laughing at him. And he laughs, too.

That’s one of the reason why I love him so much.







..and it remains as an unfinished business.


WHO ARE YOU ?

Thursday, October 30, 2008


THE SELF

[01] Real name: Hasnie Falina Bt Mohd. Aslie
[02] Nickname: Nana, Fina, Hasnie, Fin, Falina, Na.. n some time ago ade yang panggil Feli. hoho! lucunyer.
[03] Status: : it's complicated [rindu plerk time single mingle dulu..]
[04] Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
[05] Gender: Female
[06] Age: 21 year and 11 month
[07] High School: Smk Telupid
[08] College: Universiti Utara Malaysia (UUM)
[09] Height: 150cm
[10] Weight: 48 Kg
[11] Do you like yourself: Proud of what i am!
[12] Piercings: Kat telinga. Normal la tuh..
[13] Right or left: Lefthanded
[14] Are you a freak : i ammmm.. ngehehe.. *big grin*
[15] Hair: Ikal
[16] Skin: Fair and Lovely. huhaha.
[17] Allergic: dumb and extra-handsome men.
[18] What are you doing now: working on my degree :D
[19] What will you doing 1 hour later: dpn skrin pc.
[20] What will you doing 10 years later: in 10 years, i would reach the age 32. picturing myself - having my own life happily married with the one n only, being a loving mom of two or three cute children, with growing carier n salaries - simple but a perfect life :)


THE FAMILY

[21] Live with mother/father/parents/family: Family
[22] Siblings(included you): 5
[23] Eldest: Me
[24] Youngest: Nabil Firdaus
[25] Love/hate your family: Love them all.. :)


THE LOVE

[26] You found your another half: Maybe..
[27] If yes, who is he/she: AR
[28] Who you want he/she to be: Be himself.
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: in a real relationship, only two. S and AR
[30] Ever woo boy/girl: Nope.
[31] Anyone woo you before: not sure.
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: yup..
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: no need to mention
[34] Ever argue with your other half: Always. and then the time come when we learn how to handle our conflict dengan cara berhikmah - perbincangan dari hati ke hati. it takes two to know the truth, u know. one to speak n one to listen.
[35] You with your other half since: 6 months ago.
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: straight.
[37] Reasons you love your other half: there's no actual reason.
[38] You and your other half in which stage: my theory - 1 would be knowing each other's feeling and building relationship, 2 would be gaining each other's trust, knowing each other's weakness and best part, background, etc.. 3 would be seeing each other family, 4 would be engaged, 5 married, 6 is 5 years after married, 7 8 n 9 is all the about the married life, and 10th, seeing each other at the ultimate place.. so, i would give 2 stars. out of 10 stars.
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: he. hehe..
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: thats the main reason why i attached to this relationship okeh..


THE FRIEND

[41] Your first best friend: Norfazila Binti Pahin! love u girl.
[42] Your first enemy: hate this kind of question. no one in mind right now.
[43] The friends you love the most: they are always my old friends. all of them! but mostly are.. Ziela, Tia, Amoy, Padil, Armin.
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1only): there's no enemy in my life dictionary, harap maklum.
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: saye (huhaha.. tanak tinggal jugak), Amoy, Ziela, Tia and lots of :) my girls are all beautiful!
[46] Your most handsome boy friend: lots n lotttss of. but i can't get too close with really really really handsome guys u know. so i dun have any. duhh.. anyone??
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: yg berlagak diva okeh
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: lelaki2 tepi jalan yang duduk melepak2 tanpa arah d luar sana. hate that kind of guys.
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: nope
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: nope
[51] If your friend backstabbing you: biar Tuhan balas perbuatan die.
[52] If your friend betray you: what goes around come around.
[53] If your friend woo your lover: best woman win!
[54] If your friends fall in love with you: why not :p
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: oh.. ya? okay.. :p


THE STUDIES

[56] Are you a good student: Nope
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: yup. last minutes.
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: dah masuk U ni, jrg close sgt dengan lecturers. taktau nape.
[59] Always late to school/college: sem ni, always on time.
[60] Your class: sangat menyeronokkan. in every of my class, i'll be like.. 'ohhhh..!'. hehe.
[61] You love your seniors: hahaha. tak kenal satu pun.
[62] Senior who you love the most: ntah.
[63] Your classmates good/bad: i like the class, but my classmates???.. *sigh*
[64] Excellent result classmate: heard that some of them are penerima anugerah dekan tiap sem.
[65] Laziest classmate: dunno. not really knowing them.


THE PEOPLE

[66] Smart people: u know, smart people is smart in way they talk, think, laugh, etc.
[67] Stupid people: everything main lepas jer n takda timing.
[68] Good looking people: dengan senyuman yang kena pada wajah.
[69] Ugly people: muka masam manjang.
[70] Funny people: yang gila2 bahasa. Hee..
[71] Cute people: yang jambu.
[72] Bad people: penuh tipu muslihat.
[73] Honest people: our close person.
[74] Acting people: penuh tipu muslihat.
[75] You are what kind of people: u judge.






THE PREFER

[76] Lip or eyes: both
[77] Hugs or kisses: Both
[78] Shorter or taller: Taller
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: Sponteneous
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: both
[81] Listener or talker: Both
[82] Romantic or rich: Both
[83] Good husband or Good Father: Both


THE FUTURE

[84] Age to get marry: 27 - 28 - 29
[85] Numbers of kid(s): 3
[86] Career: businesswoman
[87] Salary: 5000[88] Retirement age: no retirement.
[89] Properties value: nah..[90] Wishes: may all my dream's come true


THE VICTIMS
[91] ALL UUM's and Ex-UUM's BLOGGER[92] ALL BLOGGERS yang singgah kat sini :D


p/s 'saje isi survey ni, jumpe kat blog Cik Jannah :D. tensen gile so i'm tagging u all! huhaha. saya tau budak2 UUM skrg ni tgh busy nak exam so, give u all time til next year. hehe. wish me luck! esok 31 Oct Exam utk subjek Teori & Praktis Kaunseling Individu. da.'





JIKA SEORANG ANAK...

JIKA SEORANG ANAK HIDUP DENGAN TIMBANG RASA
IA BELAJAR BERSABAR

JIKA SEORANG ANAK HIDUP DENGAN GALAKKAN
IA BELAJAR BERKEYAKINAN

JIKA SEORANG ANAK HIDUP DENGAN PUJIAN
IA BELAJAR MENGHARGAI

JIKA SEORANG ANAK HIDUP DENGAN SAKSAMA
IA BELAJAR ERTI KEADILAN

JIKA SEORANG ANAKHIDUP DALAM KESELAMATAN
IA BELAJAR MEMPUNYAI KEPERCAYAAN

JIKA SEORANG ANAK HIDUP DENGAN SOKONGAN
IA BELAJAR MENYUKAI DIRINYA

JIKA SEORANG ANAK HIDUP DENGAN PENERIMAAN DAN PERSAHABATAN
IA BELAJAR MENCARI KASIH SAYANG DI DUNIA INI


p/s anak itu satu anugerah. ibarat kain putih. faktor budaya dan persekitaran yang akan mecoraknya :D

MNW '08

Tuesday, October 28, 2008


1st of all,
to all those yang same2 menjayakan Malam Nostalgia Warisan pada 17hb Oktober lepas, diucapkan berbanyak2 terima kasih dan sila datang lagi.

even majlis tu is a failure kat mata orang lain, dan some people ckp 'jadikan ini pengajaran atau pengalaman' utk bg sume tu reasonable dan maybe lari dari kritikan, but for me, it's more than that. yup. mmg satu pengajaran kepada org tertentu dan saya, as well. but hey. u handled two projects, and every of your project failed kerana kedegilan awak tidak menerima pendapat org lain dan for u, as u hold 'the title', u want every people ikut telunjuk awak tanpa pertimbangkan cadangan dan saranan org lain. dun deny it, cuz it looks totally obvious. mmg saya nampak seperti menyalahkan. yup. we can't stay righteous all the time anyway. i dun want to speak much here, - just hoping that u come to realize bout what other people talked at ur back. i heard enuf. i saw enuf. and i HAD enuf.


anyway..
did u see me? in grey circle :] walking to the front wakil amik rewards.
Kumpulan Rumandawi won! the ONLY thing that great during that night. proud of all of u guys.

p/s 'kemaafan itu dendam yang terindah'

MY PLANNING

Saturday, October 25, 2008

CAR AND MAKING MONEY

Nak beli kereta lah ~

huks! aku sendiri hampir tergelak, macamana semalam tibe2 terfikir nak ade keter sendiri. dahlah asal jauh kat sabah, still student, own salary utk bayar pun takde lagi. nak gune elaun yang ayah bagi tu bleh la cover dlm bwh rm200 tp banyak mana la kalo nak banding dengan harga kerete.

teringat hari tu ckp kat mak nak mintak ayah belikan keter, mak bagi respon mcm positif jer.. tp bila ckp kat ayah, ayah senyum je. ingatkan bleh la. bukak je mulut, 'nanti bila sudah kerja, beli yang canggih2 pun takpa'. hampa. lagi kecil peluang tu bila dapat tau sampbung study kat Kedah.

but really. sgt2 muak naik bas. pastu mcm bez jer tgok orang bawak keter sndiri. geram org buat sewa keter n keter sapu leh kaut untung mudah dan lumayan dari kitorang yang rajin menyewa. ceh. sakit hati. rm6 utk kos hantar dari kampus ke DPP Bukit Kachi yang jauhnye setakat 4 km dan tidak pernah trafik.

– 1st survey the price – for auto or manual (i nak auto lah), kos pengangkutan balik sabah nanti, kalo cuti simpan kat mana, and everything. Maybe i can rent it to others with cheaper price berbanding harga yang dalam pasaran kat UUM sekarang. Rm90 seharian, rm70 for half day. Rm10 for 1st hour then rm5 for every hour after. thats standard price here kalo nak sewa kancil. nak yang 1st hand ke 2nd hand? byk soalan kat kepala hotak ni. in case nak mudah dapatkan sticker pun, kena aktif kat klj. cth, jd JPMK. my rumet apply jd JPMK sem dpn, tujuan utama. nak dapatkan sticker keter. die start bawa keter sem ni.

CARIER
I’m going to finish my degree at 2011. No more extending semester. I can’t stand staying here more than that. So, I’ll be fully graduated in degree when I reached 25. I’ve planned to start working on early 2012. Counseling is just batu loncatan, actually. I got much working plan. Continuing mom’s business? Following dad’s path? Working at non-government school? Or just staying home with my kids... hehe... joke. for sure, I’ll be back to business! Well, I just hate Maths u know...

GETTING MARRIED
I want to get married not more than 28. But I’ll consider being married earlier if my bank account reached RM20 000. But nah! Haha. I want to remain ‘berdua’ until a year then baru fikir nak buat anak. Planned to have 3 babies BEFORE I’m 35. That’s my final decision. Dulu fikir nak habis beranak sblm 30 but bila fikir maybe lambat kawen, so terpaksalah.

STUDIES
I want to reach master level. And then, I’ll try to reach the PHD. For now, i'll do my best in counseling. Biar hidup ini tidak pernah menyesal.

ACHIVEMENT AND SKILLS TO DEVELOP
I want to..
- Master about 5 languages in my life. Malay, English, Dusun, France, Mandarin. besar ek cita2
- Being in PERKAMA.
- To gain salaries at least rm5000 a month
- Continuing my mom’s footsteps ; merging the business, or build another cawangan. Kena belajar masak macam mama.

ops. da. nak cepat! slm.


WHAT ABOUT NOW??

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?


JAWAP TAG..

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

1. Apakah benda yang paling penting dalam hidup kamu?
family

2. Apakah benda terakhir yang kamu beli dengan wang sendiri?
brg mkn

3. Di manakah tempat impian perkahwinan kamu?
tak fikir lagi

4. Berapa lama anda rasa hubungan kamu berkekalan?
selagi ada rasa sayang..

5. Adakah anda dilamun cinta?
totally :)

6. Di manakah restoran terakhir kamu makan malam?
kat mall bukit kachi

7. Namakan buku terakhir yang kamu beli?
Hijab Sang Pencinta - Ramlee AM

8. Apakah nama penuh kamu?
Hasnie Falina

9. Kamu lebih senang dengan mak atau ayah?
dua2 senang, tapi dengan mak, bleh berkongsi apa ja :)

10. Namakan seseorang yang kamu ingin jumpa untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidup anda?
secara realitinya, no one in my mind rite now. but if tlh ditakdirkan yg there will b somebody in this world yg akan bw perubahan dlm hidup sy, really can't wait for that :p

11. Christina atau Britney?
no thanx.

12. Adakah kamu mencuci pakaian anda sendiri?
ya, n kadang2 mesin jerrrr.. hoho

13. Tempat yang paling seronok kamu mahu pegi?
saaaaaana..

14. Pelukan atau ciuman?
hugs.. it feels warmer n loved.. :) mom, miss u. huhu. baru jap td call mama.

15. 8 perkara yang amat saya gilai
everything about traditional dance n being a dancer!
nyanyi2
internet
cam-whoring
window-shopping and shopping (pakaian, kasut, other accessories..)
books- novels, comics, etc
hanging out with family, him or my friends
travel jauh2! dats y dr Sabah pilih dtg UUM. ngehehehe..

16. 6 perkataan yang sering diucapkan:
ntah
gile ah
ko memang
jap g sy dtg
begini la.. (dan ayat seterusnya)
laparrr..

17. 6 buah buku yang paling terbaru dibaca:
lupe la sape2 pnulis sume..
'a thousand miles' - award winning novel
'panduan meningkatkan kecerdasan emosi (EQ)'
'penampilan diri berkualiti'
'minda yang cerdas'
'membentuk cinta abadi'
'february flowers'

18. 8 lagu-lagu yang saya boleh dengar berulang kali:
tak selera nak list-kan.

P/S tq anas :)

LOVE IS A LOSING GAME

Sunday, October 19, 2008

entahla.
dalam keadaan byk keje mcm ni, mcm2 pula masalah timbul.
with abg :(

sory dear, for hurting u. sy tidak bermaksud mcm tu, but natijahnya, pe yg kuar, sume menyakitkan hati. kita masing2 menyakitkan hati masing2. itu slh, ini slh. what happen to us? where does 'the happy us' gone??

nak jumpe, tp bile fikir mesti pas jumpe tu masing2 muke kelat cuz gaduh, arhhh.. baik takyah jumpe. niat nak bg jernih hubungan tp lain yg jadi.

why.



why there's some guys akan terlalu mengongkong pasangan?
and why there's some other guys yang buat tak kisah dengan pasangan? tp mengaku mereka amat mencintai?


i know, cara dan pola pemikiran lelaki dan perempuan berbeza. peta arah jln kat otak lelaki takkan sama dengan perempuan, thats why they'll never understand each other. sebab itulah perlunya persefahaman. cuz that's the only way utk mereka2 yang berjodoh untuk bekalan hidup bersama nanti.

but, tell me. apa pegangan (or whatever it called) yang lelaki pegang sampai lelaki bersikap macam tu?

i can't understand that.



SURVEY

Saturday, October 18, 2008

time bloghopping ke blog ANN, upernyer die tag kite laks..

dan sy terus tertarik nak wat (lame tak d tag. haha). skrg ni ade dlm 20 minit lg nak kena balik bilik, seharian duk merayap. on ur set, go!



1. Name one person who made you laugh last night.
- i dun have any reason to laugh last nite :( :( :(

2. What were you doing at 0800?
- tido lar.. kol 11 baru bangon. hoho

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
- kat bilik kawan, discussion.

4. What happened to you in 2006?
- betrayed.. since then, i started to changed to what or which path i'm in now.

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
- 'abg mmg tdk phm!!'.. uhuk! sory dear..

6. How many beverages did you have today?
- air kosong jer.. hehe..

7. What color is your hairbrush?
- pink and black. new one.


8. What was the last thing you paid for?
- urmm.. mkn. rm2.60. but gile kenyang.


9. Where were you last night?
- meeting meeting meeting.. spatutnye ade training lg but tak g la..

10. What color is your front door?
- mcm kaler pintu bilik Ann. ngehehe

11. Where do you keep your change?
- purse. n kat tabung. hoho


12. What’s the weather like today?
- panasssss.. then, hujan kemain lebattttt.. skrg ni mendung..


13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
- ntah. tibai jer sume! hehe.


14. What excites you?
- the Malam Nostalgia Warisan. our project. budak UUM especially yg klj Bukit Kachi 1 & 2 tu saye wajibkan dtg yer. no excuse! ahaha. 21hb, 8.30pm at Dewan Bukit Kachi :) tema tradisional.


15. Do you want to cut your hair?
- nope at this time. rambut tak sampai pinggang lg :D bile dah sampai, akan dipertimbangkan :p

16. Are you over the age of 25?
- below :)


17. Do you talk a lot?
- depends :)


18. Do you watch the O.C.?
- sory?

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
- yup. schoolmate time sklh rendah dulu.


20. Do you make up your own words?
- sometimes! haha.

21. Are you a jealous person?
- depends. there's some thing i wont care.


22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
- Ann :) asrol, adrian, ahmad huzaini, aila, ain, ainum, aka, amoy, amy, armin, ariff, asyraf, azlyn, azri, .. eh ramai.. cek kat daftar hp.. ekekeke

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
- deh.. mls dah..


24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
- on my celcom, him. on my maxis, org silap number.


25. What does the last text message you received say?
- 'kalo ada kesempatan, abg akan bg yang terbaik..' porfavorrrr.. brape kali nak janji.. :(

26. Do you chew on your straw?
- no i didnt..

27. Do you have curly hair?
- prefer to call it.. ikal mayang :)

28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?
- my own room.. prepare nak g expo konvo! jom!

29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?
- me?? haha.

30. What the last thing that you ate?
- nasi campur..

31. Will you get married in the future?
- no way i'm not getting married!! hoho

32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?last??
- hmm.. wanted kot. best gak citer tu. buat tu utk analisis video dan ternyata filem itu filem yang punya skrip dan grafik yang bgus ya bapak2 dan ibu2.

33. Is there anyone you like right now?
- hehe.. loooooooooooooooots of. i like u too. for caring to read entri merepek2 sy. ehehe

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
- at home.

35. Are you currently depressed?
- yah!

36. Did you cry today?
- with tears? no.

37. Why did you answer and post this?
- sj isi mase.. :)

38. Tag 5 people who would do this survey
- sape2 je la yg terase2 nak buat.. hehehe

Monday, October 13, 2008

Salam.

ya Allah, busy sgt minggu ni. rase macam menteri je.

hari ni terpaksa ulang alik dari kampus 4 kali. 1st, g kls ganti jam 12.30-2ptg. then balik klj cuz pengetua kolej nak jumpe utk discuss bout mslh projek. mmg urgent la. call niza n kitorang g. ni dah masuk plan yang keberapa dah ni. A B C D sume da wat.. terpaksa buat lg. my my. gimme a break!
ptg ni lg ade kls jam 5-6.30 ptg then nak balik kolej lg utk bersiap g kelas 8.30-11mlm karang lak. dun want to spend those 2 hour gap kat kampus. baek balek kampus leh rehat2.

esok pagi g grup discussion, actually nak combine assignment ngan ahli group kat library. then decide juz nak emel je la kat diorg mlm ni cuz takut takde masa. esok got to go to Pusat Serenti Pokok Sena utk jalankan sesi kaunseling ngan budak2 serenti kat sana. wish me luck.

there's someone post shout out kat cbox sy sebelah ni.. and i've deleted it. that person know who he is. ni nak balas balik pe die ckp.

'do u really have to mention that?? i know bukan sy yang awak ckp, but thats my friend dan awak tiada hak untuk memandang orang dengan pandangan serong. ya maybe awak rasa yg awak ckp tu biasa je, but remember. no body's perfect. bare that in mind, kaji sebenarnya apa maksud 'no body's perfect' - its not just a word yang bleh diucap sesuaka hati tanpa penghayatan, but something utk diinsafi. so please have respect if you don't know what u're talking about or juz utk mengisi ruang cbox saya. bukan semua orang bleh bergurau tahap macam tu. some of ur jokes were way too mean.'

sory guys. die cakap pendek je tp sy jawap berjela2. at least sume da lepas kat sini.
sory, got to delete his message cuz ade tracking url kat situ, nti malu plak die kalo org leh track die. sape2 yang dah terperasan mesej tu nasibla..

come back later.

Friday, October 10, 2008


assalamualaikum..

ni la gambo mokcik time muda2 dulu. mmg cun. skrg pun masi cun lg tp bile dah kawen ni takleh tunjuk sgt cunnye, yela.. nak jage rumah tangga kan.. errr.. tak tau la.. skrg lg cun kot. kahkahkah..

sbrnya mokcik rindu ngan jeans kaler hitam yang mokcik tgh pakai time tu. bukan per, punggung nampak kecik bile pakai jeans tu. kuangkuang.

gambar besar gedabak kat bawah ni lak gambar mokcik ngan pokcik hangpa2 sume time muda2. hish.. ade gak motor die kat belakang menyelit. mat rempit betui.





FiNa :: "Ape aku melalut nih. hehe. ni gambar time KLK kat Taman Budaya Negeri Kedah Darul Aman pada April 2008. terjumpa mamat ni, saje tumpang glemer. ngee.. :D"


ABOUT ME

There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts that had some bitter endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo..

Some things,
I wish I could do all all over again,
But it don't really matter,
When life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,
some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were, Lessons learned..

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
And everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful,
for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned..

There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,I never should have taken,
some signs I didn't see,
that I hurt needlessly,Some wounds,
That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,

But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were, Lessons learned..

And all the things that break you,
Are the things that make you strong!
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone..
And you just gotta move on,
Because it's all Lessons learned.

KAD RAYA LAGI

Thursday, October 09, 2008


dengan rasa rendah diri, dari saya yang cun.


ni kad raya kedua, cantik sket dr yang dulu.. kiranya nak ganti kad yg 1st tuh. dulu tu sape tah yang buat :p hoho. dengan ucapan Salam Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin, harap senyuman saya yang manis itu mampu mengubat lara d hati tuan/puan/encik/cik sekalian walaupun hanya sementara.

senyum itu kan punya ratusan nikmat d sebalik.


PERFECTLY.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

You come to love, not by finding the perfect person.
But by seeing an imperfect person... PERFECTLY.


LAGU KAMI

Hadapi Dengan Senyuman - Dewa
Hadapi dengan senyuman. Semua yang terjadi biar terjadi. Hadapi dengan tenang jiwa. Semua... kan baik baik saja. Bila ketetapan Tuhan sudah ditetapkan, tetaplah sudah. Tak ada yang bisa merubah dan takkan bisa berubah. Relakanlah saja ini bahawa semua yang terbaik. Terbaik untuk kita semua. Menyerahlah untuk menang.

Percayalah - Siti Nurhaliza
Suasana sepi begini panahan rindu menusuk hati tak mungkin kau sedari. Lantas ku titip puisi kasih agar gelora tidak merintih sengsara pun menyisih. Dengarkanlah suara hati, moga dikau mampu mengerti cinta hadir tanpa ku rasa simpati. Percayalah, kasihmu lama tersulam di ruang paling dalam, terlalu jauh tak terselam. Ku akui dugaan datang jua pergi, rela ku menghadapi dengan harapan suci doa bersemi. Kasih, usah bak suria kau hadir persis ombak memukul ke sisir, bimbang cinta terusir. Kerna rindu pastikan lahir, airmata setia mengalir. Berjanjilah ia tak mungkin kan berakhir..

RUNNING AWAY..

Tuesday, October 07, 2008


WHY AM I RUNNING AWAY FROM YOU..

NEW TEMPLATE


fact ::

- my 1st try edit pic ngan photoscape.

- amik pic ngan Dana, time raya pertama.


baru selesai menukar template utk page blogger saya. 3 column. black and reddish pink (??). akhirnya tercapai juga hasrat untuk menukar template. tulisan agak kecil, mungkin akan sedikit mengganggu bacaan pembaca sekalian. what ever it is, please let me know yah! :)


p/s
esemes ni diterima tadi "..abg maafkan segala apa yg ayg buat. abg sentiasa syg ayg, sentiasa sayangkan ayg. nite." saya sedikit tergamam td. mungkin abg online dan terbaca entri saya sebelum ni.

and my silence should tells it all.


lots of love.

LOVE NOTES

Monday, October 06, 2008

spends all the night by myself..
Now that we've part, but he never actually really leave me..
cuz he stays in here.
he's part of me.

abg, i miss you.. maaf sbb begini tega. begini nekad. percayalah ini semua utk kebaikan.
and, please use ur time wisely dear..

STUFFS

Sunday, October 05, 2008

went to Kota Kinabalu, hantar Dana balik sekolah.
before tu.. saya, my bro - kili, lia (Kili's GF), dan dana (no pic, sorry) jalan2 kat Wisma Sabah dan Center Point. tu je yg sempat. hehe. spent lots time kat Center Point actually cuz singgah Wisma Sabah just nak tengok2 kasut cuz last time i went there, mmg byk kasut yg cantik2. today, i bought this.

RM49.90 :: sYEZSqi 3 inch

kat Center Point, lepak kat Eaton's. kedai buku. bought these books,

Siri Pendidikan : Pengurusan Bimbingan & Kaunseling


EQ - Panduan Meningkatkan Kecerdasan Emosi

Petua Membentuk Cinta Abadi


Novel : Hijab Sang Pencinta

my study's books, and the latest book of Ramlee Awang Murshid : 'Hijab Sang Pencinta' - trilogi dan ada sedikit kesinambungan bagi novel 'Bagaikan Puteri' dan 'Cinta Sang Ratu'. tak baca habis lagi sbb sentuh buku ni sebelum tidur je dan baru beberapa helai baca dah tertidur. doesn't mean citer tak besh (majuk plak Encik Ramlee.. hehe..) but ghairah utk baca novel dah kurang. maybe cuz this's juz a trilogy. and since novel2 Encik Ramlee versi epik ni agak overdose, saya jd mudah mengantuk.

i am still his fan. waiting for his next novel - 'Mikhail'.
'Mikhail' : Tentang seorang lelaki yang lahir pada 29 Februari.. tahun lompat. lelaki ini menyambut hari lahir empat tahun sekali. Dia seorang pembunuh, tapi bukan pembunuh upahan mahupun bersiri. tidak juga bersifat sadis. namun, apapun tafsirannya.. lelaki ini tetap seorang pembunuh kejam. pada suatu ketika, pembunuh ini telah jatuh cinta pada sasarannya.
hope yang ni leh challenge 'Rahsia Perindu' :)

selepas sampai dari KK dlm jam 6.30 ptg tadi, jam 8mlm pla g jap kat kenduri kahwin kakak sepupu. actually i dun address her as 'akak' since beza umur pun juz setahun dan mmg dah terbiasa sejak kecil d kalangan kami juz panggil nama jer. i dun talk much with her but happy that she finally ends up marrying someone she truly love walaupun pada awalnya ditentang oleh keluarga disebabkan oleh perkara2 tertentu.




okey done!

MY 3RD RAYA

Friday, October 03, 2008

hey :)

last time i've put kad2 raya dr kwn2 friendster sy, well, sorry guys, i've deleted it since my blog seems got a slow-loading problem.

today is our 3rd raya. i dun take pic that much like people do. but 1st raya and 2nd raya was a blast! at 2nd raya, i just wears t-shirt and my black slack. here, nobody really cares. susah bah bergerak sana sini pakai such that formal and lady-like attire - bju kurung and all - since my fmly buat open-house on that day.

on the 1st raya, we went to kubur - menziarahi dan baca yasin. kubur arwah nenek n datuk sblh mama dan ayah, kazen - arwah tati dan anip yang meninggal 2006 lalu.. semoga roh mereka semua dicucuri rahmat..

pastu bergerak pulang ke kg terus g beraya kat umah2 pakcik n makcik. raya pertama g 5 buah rumah je. raya kedua tak g mana2 but mlmnya ke umah pakcik yang sulung utk majlis hari keluarga sebelah ayah.

malam tu lah padil - my kazen - gtau yg S is coming on 3rd raya. after these two years, this is what i've been waiting for. i want to show him the happy me. that i can be happy and bahagia even without him in my life. but what's left now is a girl who is silently crying over and over again. damn, i got the other man here twisting my heart and playing some love game inside my head!

i got 1 message for u here.
never get too deep into a thing called love. i mean, love to the opposite sex (atau yg sama. x bermaksud menggalakkan acara sedemikian ye) u'll laugh (of cos) and then u'll find urself crying. if u get too attached to it, u'll fall very hard, dear..

about s. i don't know if i want to see him today.


"MEH AMIK KAD RAYA" .. kata Cik FiNa kepada semua :]

Wednesday, October 01, 2008


kini tiba masanya berhari raya :)
lalala~

dears, ni e-kad raya buatan cursor yg tak seberapa tp dbuat dengan penuh kasih syg, ikhlas dr sy. ehe. ala, edit gune software PAINT je. dan ade sikit part tu edit dengan microsoft picture manager. setiap komputer adenyer perisian2 ni. entah ke mana hilangnya picasa editor sy. dimakan anai2 kot :D

amik eyh.. sile2. jgn segan2. sesungguhnye saya berbangga jika kad ini diletakkan sekali kat dinding rumah anda. ehehe.

oya. umah sy buat rumah terbuka pada hari raya kedua d kg kinapulidan, Ranau Sabah. jemput dtg ramai2!

 
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